Broken Sea Glass

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Myspace

You all have heard the chitchat about myspace, the "unsafe" site for all ages. I personally don't have a myspace, because so many people have one I don't want one. at school my friends bug me to get a myspace and I tell them its because so many people have it that I wont get one, I go against the crowd you all know. Going upstream, thats what I do. Well, A few friends of mine in church and everywhere else told me to atleast check out their myspace. So, today I did because I trust that they would be somewhat like me and go against the current. Which means, not posting anything they know they shouldn't be posting. So I glance about and find their myspaces, and thats when I was nearly blinded because my eyes opened so wide. I tell you what, there is some seriously sick issues in their head, and I plan on telling them. Ugh, never again folks. I know myspace is a bad terretory to cross, and there I dun and did it. I guess friends do have their multipersonality trades. Kind of creepy, and I am ready to poke some sence into them. I know we're not all perfect but come one, what their saying is practically asking for people to come in and chat like pervs, act like pervs. So I will close this entry and go to bed, I am planning on eating healthy and excersizing close to daily starting tomarrow, I allready have this brushing TWICE a day thing down and flossing once a day. So I gots it all. Should really run.
LAtERz

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Early birds always almost never gets the worm.

So, its around 7:18ish, got ready for school, now just waiting to leave around 7:40ish. I get at school like three minutes before the bell rings, which gives me time to get to the portables across campus, atleast half way there anyhow. Well, while I wait for my time to leave I figured I would talk and talk. Ramble on like an idiot, Arg, only my stomach is killing me. Testing my very paitents with hurling over reactions. Arg, for the past two days I have been sick as a dog but still have gone to school. Had many quizes, ok, only one a day. But I don't want to waist my precious lunch time taking quizes to make up for lost time. Lunch is ment for social hour and food. Even though I don't eat lunch... Yeah. Today is a half day, so I guess I get out around 11:30ish, at McClintock you don't even have lunch on half days, well we do, thank God. It takes away time from all my other classes, thats why I am so happy about it. Um... Things are going good, miht have a ride home from school now, this girl in my class, I guess we are friends, well she see's me walking home all the time. I guess she takes a lot of people home so her mom wont have a problem taking me home awell. Which is sweet, I thought about saying no thanks but this could mean making more friends. Thats kind of my new years resolution, making as many good friends as possable. So far I don't have any bad apples in my clan of people. Actually, I am the cleanest one out of all of them. I guess that makes me a little safer to be with because I keep everyone out of trouble. Even though one girl has parties all the time, and practically gets drunk every weekend.... I love her anyway. lol, not love, more like like her anyway. She is a good friend. Anyway, I shoudl go so I can blow my nose and learn how to breath before going outside.
~Peace~

Early birds always almost never gets the worm.

So, its around 7:18ish, got ready for school, now just waiting to leave around 7:40ish. I get at school like three minutes before the bell rings, which gives me time to get to the portables across campus, atleast half way there anyhow. Well, while I wait for my time to leave I figured I would talk and talk. Ramble on like an idiot, Arg, only my stomach is killing me. Testing my very paitents with hurling over reactions. Arg, for the past two days I have been sick as a dog but still have gone to school. Had many quizes, ok, only one a day. But I don't want to waist my precious lunch time taking quizes to make up for lost time. Lunch is ment for social hour and food. Even though I don't eat lunch... Yeah. Today is a half day, so I guess I get out around 11:30ish, at McClintock you don't even have lunch on half days, well we do, thank God. It takes away time from all my other classes, thats why I am so happy about it. Um... Things are going good, miht have a ride home from school now, this girl in my class, I guess we are friends, well she see's me walking home all the time. I guess she takes a lot of people home so her mom wont have a problem taking me home awell. Which is sweet, I thought about saying no thanks but this could mean making more friends. Thats kind of my new years resolution, making as many good friends as possable. So far I don't have any bad apples in my clan of people. Actually, I am the cleanest one out of all of them. I guess that makes me a little safer to be with because I keep everyone out of trouble. Even though one girl has parties all the time, and practically gets drunk every weekend.... I love her anyway. lol, not love, more like like her anyway. She is a good friend. Anyway, I shoudl go so I can blow my nose and learn how to breath before going outside.
~Peace~

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Arf

So this weekend I was at my dads, we went to Game Crazy and got him nfl05, and redeye. We played red eye for a while, kind of boreing, so we went and played the campaigne by taking turns playing. The buttons are really sensative, so I didn't really like the game, my dad kept complaining its too touchy with the controler. When we were at game crazy I wanted to pick up Prince of Persia but the guy at the counter said it was part three of some trilogy,t hat if we just jumped in one three thne we wont get the whole story line. So now I have to go find part one to find out whatever the hell he was talking about. I guess the first one is sands of time, so I will have to check it out. Me being me, I don't get into story lines very easily, I just liked to jump into the game and kill everyone. So I will attempt this whole "fallow the story line" thing he was talking about. Um... so.... yeah, I can' really think of anything to talk about. In around ten minutes I need to head to church because in thirteen or so minutes there is this ireland trip meeting that I HAVE to go to. Not to excited about that, but if I have to go then I will. I had to come back early from my dads to go to this meeting and after the meeting I am supposed to finish this stupid project. I am not in a "happy" mood, just complaining in my head about this whole issue about getting a dog. Well, I should go before I end up neglecting the fridge for too long.
~Laters~

Arf

So this weekend I was at my dads, we went to Game Crazy and got him nfl05, and redeye. We played red eye for a while, kind of boreing, so we went and played the campaigne by taking turns playing. The buttons are really sensative, so I didn't really like the game, my dad kept complaining its too touchy with the controler. When we were at game crazy I wanted to pick up Prince of Persia but the guy at the counter said it was part three of some trilogy,t hat if we just jumped in one three thne we wont get the whole story line. So now I have to go find part one to find out whatever the hell he was talking about. I guess the first one is sands of time, so I will have to check it out. Me being me, I don't get into story lines very easily, I just liked to jump into the game and kill everyone. So I will attempt this whole "fallow the story line" thing he was talking about. Um... so.... yeah, I can' really think of anything to talk about. In around ten minutes I need to head to church because in thirteen or so minutes there is this ireland trip meeting that I HAVE to go to. Not to excited about that, but if I have to go then I will. I had to come back early from my dads to go to this meeting and after the meeting I am supposed to finish this stupid project. I am not in a "happy" mood, just complaining in my head about this whole issue about getting a dog. Well, I should go before I end up neglecting the fridge for too long.
~Laters~

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Better days

For the past week I have been trying to atleast look in a better mood. At school I apperently look like I am pretty angry and want to beat someone up because of it, I had no idea thats what I looked like. I am not angry, I just am off into my own little world and every once in a while pop into this world and say hi. So this week I tried to change that by talking more and attepting that whole "Smile" thing. So far it is going well, no one has asked me whats wrong, so thats a plus side. I was called weird a few times by the same person, but she isn't all too normal either. On other news, I want to get back into running, but its so cold out I am afraid I am going to die befor I get through atleast one mile out of the five and then some mile circle that goes through the whole complex of neighborhoods. But I feel I need to get back into my running shape, so I think thats what I will do. Sound good? Thats right, Sarah is going to teach herself how to be a runner again before all my muscle leaves my body forever.
But there is some problems when I run, atleast sometimes there are. Yesterday on my long walk home again everything from me right knee and below killed me, arg the pain. It hurt like someone putting their hand through my leg and sqeezed my bones together. I had a steady pace going, but then I went gimp and slowed down, slower, slower, until I could have stopped walking and I would of thought I was still going. So I was gimping for a while, then I would try to talk with my normal walk, but then get pushed down to gimping. I even tried stretching the leg, messaged it best to my abilities and still I died from trying. I thought about cutting my leg off, but then I didn't want to be a one legged anchovi either, so I think I will keep my leg until further notice. Whatelse.... Oh, I did my assignment totally wrong, and going to have to change most of my presentation so not to put the class to sleep. On kid coudln't get past his first name, and on the second try he could remember how many brothers he had, and on his last try he was able to talk about his brothers and how they told him he was adopted. So he went to ask his dad to confirm this and his dad told him it was true, even though it wasn't. I felt so bad for him, he was going to lose all his points and embarress himself and I couldn't do anything because the teacher says there is no encouragment, help, or making people laugh once it starts. So, I know I wont be a total doof as the center of attention, which is my least favorite place to be unless I had too much mountain dew, then I will be the center of attention. Haha. When I get home from school I will probably write somemore of that story for you Luke, because you keep asking. lol, just haven't had the time or mood. So I will leave this entry to its bottomless abyss.
~Peace out~

Monday, January 16, 2006

Trouble with homework



Well, I got this assignment on Friday to write an autobiography about myself with three important things people should know about me. And I tell you what, that is the hardest thing for me to do.I have been doing it for like four hours now and I have not been able to think of any of the three important things about me. One is that I like to read and write, but whats so important and special about that? Its not going to catch anyones interest. I have to read it infront of the class, that is what makes me worry so much. I don't want to be one of the dorks up there that has a lousy and boreing life, someone with really nothing to say because their life is just full of blank pages. Arg, this is really angering me, I feel like going for a run but I need to get this finished because it is due tomarrow. I was thinking about writing about the fact I was a very bored child and liked to make up a lot of different imagenary friends and fantasy creatures, but then I know they would want to institutionalize me. I know they would want to because I would do the same thing to someone if I heard about that. I can't think of any trips I have been on that were all that, and nothing special has happened to me. This is horrible and is stressing the hell out of me. I hate this assignment, and what makes things worse is that I have to come up with a lie to tie into my life. There is so many other things on my mind that I have been puting this off all weekend to try and sort out other things. I can't tell stories about other peoples lives because this is supposed to be all about me. So not fare, I would rather be telling stories about other peoples lives. The torture of this assignment could really put me to rest, in the ground that is. I even asked my mom if there is anything intersting I could write about myself and all she could pull off were jokes that made me grr. Ok, I should end this and try and finish this stupid autobiography.
~Peace~

Monday, January 09, 2006

Do the Dew

Today had a rocky start, classes were all boreing and a waste of time. Er... I haven't been in the best of moods, a lot of attitude on my part. A lot of fowl language as well, but I am controleing it. Well, I got a hold of an old friend of mine in Cali, from msn of course. I guess things are getting rough for him, a dear family member of his is in the middle of three surgeries and hasen't had word about his present condition.
Ehh, and I have noticed maybe around 5 people really... angry at me for the simple fact I haven't really taken my brothers condition seriously. I'm not one to really react to that stuff, and until the results come in (Mights be on Wednesday) I refuse to take anything to an emotion extreme. I notice people getting worked up and crying over this, and I have been getting plenty of evil eyes. But why should I cry? Why should I break down over something I don't have full knowledge about. I am not an emotional person, I want facts and thats how I will view the situation. I am going to get a lot of eye rolls because of it, and even more people saying to me "But Sarah! It's brain surgery! Thats serious."
Maybe my emotional stand point is at a.... slim decline. I am very good at keeping my feelings in, and I have no problem with that. Anyway, I just wanted to update this. Oh, and mom called my music video scary..... that could be true, but if you notice, thats the same one from the mountain dew commercial. I like that commercial.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Psh, go away

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Lost in translation

Last week while I was in Kansas Chris recieved a call from our mom, I guess jeremiah had had some seriously bad migrains and she went to the doc with his to see what was up. They ran him through a cat scan and sent them on their way. Well, I guess the doc said they needed to come back because this was far more serious then they thought. I guess they knew he had something wrong with him other then a sinious infection. So they go there and the doctor tells J-boy, mom, and I think Goerge was there to, that there was this big mass in Jeremiahs brain. The doc said it could be cancer or even a tumor but they aren't full aware of what exactly. All they know is that it is not heredatary. So Jeremiah has to go back to some other place to get an MRI to see what really is in there, either way he has to have surgery to get it out.
I think thats all, well, thats what I know that is. Thought I should give a heads up to what was going on so everyone can do what they do. I wanted to continue with the story so I think I will do that while I am in the mood.
A aluminating hall light brought the here and me to glow as we stood by the front door. The old and famished woman stepped into the my home, slowly scanning her surroundings. Her steel blue eyes had stopped at a small and decrative clay jar that rested on the mantel piece above the stone fireplace. I offered to take her coat, what was left of a once fine looking coat was only holes and patches, but she jurked away. I should have known the woman would have done so, this small article of clothing had kept her alive this long, she wouldn't be so willing to lose her last warmth for the outdoors. Deciding not to push for the coat, I said, "I will make some warm soup for the two of us, make yourself comfurtable while I prepare it." I left the room with my guts, praying she would not turn from a hero into a thief so soon from entering my precious home. Into the kitchen this man went, pulling out the contents to make the soup, most of it was allready prepared and cooked so it would be easy to put together when in dire need of food. This is one of those dire moments. The floors did not creak with her movement, only the dragging of her feet was barely heard. Within a few minutes the food was done, and I poored it into the last bowls I had left clean and set the red oak table with silverware and two cups of different drinks on either side. Both bowls had a class of water and a glass of tea beside it. Walking slowly to where I had left the grandmother, I found her standing next to the fireplace, a frame in her hand while the other hand stroked slowly the contents within the picture. "The food is ready miss." A slight shiver went through the womans body as my words escaped me. Setting the picture down with such ease and precice angling, she looked up at me with her sarrowfilled eyes and fallowed me to the dineing area. Scooting the chair out for her to sit, the woman looked at me as if I had done something so law breaking that is was too insane to mutter into words. With that look she sat down uncomfurtably and stared down at the prepared food. The table was small, only three feet separated our dished on opposite sides of the table. When we were both seated I said a prayer that thanked God for our guest and prayed for her safe return where she had come from. I watched a childs hero picking up her spoon and delacetly scooping beef soup into her mouth. Her eyes relaxed and shut, colour returned to her face and satisfaction shown on her face. Puting down her spoon, still look at me with a suspicious eye, the womansaid, "In those pictures, that woman, is that your wife?" Looking down at my food I said uncomfurtably, "Yes, she is my wife." Without a moment to let mr take a breath she said, "And in that clay pot, is that an urn?" I haden't even scooped a first sip of my soap and I was losing my appitetite. "Yes, it is an urn." A look of questions was on her face, "In that urn, is that your wife?" I sighed but said nothing, there was nothing to say. The woman nodded, then brought her voice a little stronger, "What happened to her?" Pushing my chair a little away from the table and leaning back into the hard back of the chair I said looking at the wall behind her, "A homeless man shot her because she offered to feed him a meal. He said a woman that offered a man a meal, even a homeless man, is a discrase to life." There was silence betweem us, I knew she wanted to know when this happened to so I said with a calm voice, "A year ago today."

Monday, January 02, 2006

Aww, how sad

Well, I am back in Arizona again, unfortiently. I was having fun in Kansas with my bro, but I guess good times don't always happen every day. I got to watch a lot of movies I have been wanting to see with Chris, which is freakin' awsome because he doesn't talk dureing movies. I am one of those people that want to hurt everyone that starts to talk durieng movies or ask questions about the movie when they can just watch it and the answer is right there is they would just shush. Well, Chris got me a IPod Nano, it friggin kicks butt. I have been spending all my time downloading songs into it, but I am having soem problems here and there, but I will get over it, haha. I wish I didn't have to leave Kansas, hanging with Chris was awsome and seeing people I met or ran into last time I visited was fun aswell. I got to play some Halo with addicts, I did ok, but having all shotgun or granade launchers was a little nuts. Took a few deaths for me to get the feel of one shot kills, haha. then... movies, ate, laughs. It's all and all awsome. Think I gained the ten pounds I just lost with all that yummy fast food. Haha, even though Sonic wasn't very fast. I kept on missing the last step when going down the steps at my bros. I could and should have broken myself but I caught myself each time but once. Ehh, oh the pain. And Shadow, the doggy meets dog. She is a crazy dog, turned me into scar face for like a day and a half, still a little red after being pawed by her. I am listening to Toby Mac right now, he is friggin' shway. Lets see here.... chris also got me the book I have been looking for, Forever Odd by Dean Koontz. Its about this guy that can see the dead and tries to help them by finding their killer who kidnapped a loved one. Its pretty sweet, Elvis visits him a lot. Haha, I love how dead famious people are in his story. Like in Lightening, Hitler was in that book, still a bad guy only hitler is trying to time travel to the future to see if he can change what happens and win the war. Crazy? I know huh. Well Luke, to finish that tale would be something I will have to do, but right now my writing is not at all what it should be in order to continue it. So maybe in an hour or so, or in a few days, it all depends.
Ok, so I am going to end this entry and finish downloading cds.
~Peace out~